an instinctive, insistent pull

For some time now I’ve wanted to veer away from writing, in this space, always about food. In part it's because I now make a small, happy living from cooking, something that when the blog began 7 years ago seemed impossible, but I'm also beginning to feel an instinctive and yes, insistent pull to shift this creative focus a little, to lose some weight both physically and mentally, to calm the parts of my mind that automatically, creatively, think Food.  

Before I allowed the internet to seep in and destroy my attention span, two distinct and delicious plans were top of mind: a small print run of a book (lots of photos, luscious paper, some quiet, poetic thoughts on food) and a photographic show. And yet, each year I've let other needs wriggle their way in, pushing those good, good plans back another week, another month, another year. 

On Monday, during meditation, Eileen asked us to think about what we want - really, really want - way down inside. She has asked us to ask this of ourselves before in the quietness, and I often find a muddied sort of answer comes to the surface, but this week? Ka-pow. There it was in bright, glittering colours before my closed eyelids, the two things I've been actively avoiding. A wee bit spooky - although in an exceedingly good way. It was always there, that Knowing, but I'd accidentally knocked the volume button. Sheesh.   

Volume back up now, thank goodness. If it doesn't work out, does it matter? Surely not, for the pleasure and learning are in the doing, not the dreaming. 

We're off on a holiday to far off places over the next few weeks, and it's my sincere intention to make all of this make sense while away. Thanks, guys, for reading. Seven years next month! Thanks a bunch. What a gift you've all turned out to be. x

 

 

 

Comments

[leaf (the indolent cook)]

I'm quite intrigued. :) All the best with the new projects and directions you wish to venture.

[Africanaussie]

Oh enjoy your holiday, and I look forward to hearing about your next creative adventure

[Limner]

You too? I've resisting for too many years. I am on the verge. Happiness to you.

[Beth]

Lovely pictures, Lucy- there's so much peace and light. I can't wait to see what you have to share with us-congrats on seven years! And lucky you to have such a wise instructor. Thanks for sharing her insight and taking it.
xo

[Juno]

I'll keep reading no matter what. I love your eye.

[Wendy]

I love the thought of being in a space filled with your pictures.

Have a lovely trip, Lucy. x