The older I get - and at 47 and a half I'm approaching older more rapidly than I'd perhaps like - the more I feel an urgent need to draw in all the loose threads of my life thus far, to make a tapestry of the things I know into a career. Two courses this year are beginning to show signs of how that can happen, how I can be my own boss. The weaving begins.
We moved to the country full-time in late 2017. My husband said, take a year off. I did. And it was bloody hard. I waited, penniless, for a good 4 months while friends of a friend opened their new venture, one where I was to help them in their commercial kitchen, a glam hotel in Castlemaine, a mere 30 minutes drive from home. A small voice kept asking, really? you want to cook now? why would you do that? But I dived in anyway. It fell through within 2 weeks, making my heart sink, then flood with relief - it hadn't felt right for many reasons.
The universe, as ever, provides.
Among the many things that I'm learning is how to manage health during menopause, and what shocks me is how steadfast, grumpy and downright uninventive some humans can be as I trawl through the facebook group associated with the course. My brain bursts with a-ha moments about the liver, circadian rhythms and the pituitary gland; others want to gripe about how on earth they can be expected to avoid meat, as though the very idea of a vegetarian meal is an anathema. I am, as ever, grateful for the open mind I've actively cultivated for all these years. Once again, my eating habits are changing, to be lighter, more appropriate for the next phase of life.
Think I'll use this old, beloved blog again as I try to expand my focus, try to write about things that matter. I'm weaving new things, and the continuity of a life partly lived online is worth continuing. We'll see.
Hi Lucinda,
Glad to hear you're back to your blog, I love your interesting and honest writing, I'm 61 and still navigating the changes of living my mid life, how to fill it with the interests that feel worthwhile, but still make a living!
Kay
Posted by: Kay | February 07, 2019 at 02:01 PM
Yes please!
Posted by: Cathy Batley | February 08, 2019 at 07:54 AM
hi kay, and thank you, so much for your words. life is a constant questing, and it's comforting that we all do it! it's easy to think that one is alone in all the wondering...x
hi cathy - you're on :-) x
Posted by: lucinda | February 08, 2019 at 08:50 AM